Late Nights

It is 5am and I have been up with Madilynn since 4. Still, I cannot complain. She slept in her crib from 1 - 4 so I definitely got a decent nap. I have found these late night feedings to be very peaceful and reflective. Sure, I am exhausted, but I am also reminded of how lucky I am. It is so quiet at this time of night and the sleeping baby on my chest brings me so much joy and peace. These moments I cherish, because surely one day she will no longer need me in the middle of the night. And... while I do cherish them, I am also truly exhausted. 2 -3 hours of sleep at a time for 3 1/2 weeks has worn me. I find myself wishing my husband could breastfeed ;) and lets face it that is just delusional (a sure sign of my fatigue).