How can a four day week seem so incredibly long? I am afraid I am in over my head and unfortunately there is nothing i can do about it but endure. I certainly can not afford to work any less hours or my husband and I will not make ends meet. As far as school, well the add/drop period is long passed and I am in the throws so there is no turning back. Several nights this week I have broken down from pure exhaustion. There was no real reasoning accept that I was actually sad because I had to stay awake and do homework each night. The real burn out though, was Jack this week.
He has been an amazing angel in weeks passed and I have really enjoyed spending time with them. Because of Jack's severe ADHD, Eileen (his mother) and I decided to take him completely off sugar. It was like night and day. He was a new kid and it was amazing. Then thursday rolled around and Jack managed to sneak an entire box of chocolate chip granola bars. OMG I did not know what to do. He literally ran around the house tearing things apart and several things were broken. I did my best to restrain him, but with so much sugar his central nervous system was just shot. At one point Eileen and I together had to hold him down to get shoes on him so he could run around the house 10 times in the hope that would wear him out. We were unsuccessful. It was about 8 hours before he began to calm down. I was wiped and had to head home to hours of homework.
As I type, I am taking a break from homework on this friday night. Ben is out with people from work and I have to work on Saturday and Sunday night this week. I guess I just sort of feel like I am missing out on my own life. Luckily, I have faith that if I can just get through each semester there is a nice long break before the next. And hopefully 4 semsters will fly by and I will be free to again enjoy my life. Keep me in your prayers.
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