A little lonely (venting session)

I have some amazing friends and when I see them I really enjoy my time with them.
My trouble is that I don't get to see them very much. Most of them work 9 - 5 jobs and are free nights. Sadly, Ben is in business school (leaving me home without a car while he is at school) and he gets home pretty late most nights leaving me on bedtime baby duty. This means I spend most days alone with my girl and then most nights alone with myself. If I am completely honest, although I am head over heels for my daughter, I can still get pretty lonely for friends. If some of my mommy friends get together close enough I can walk, but often times they are meeting too far away from me by foot. Because I really cherish the time spent with friends I have noticed that I can get pretty discouraged when people cancel because I had so much invested. It is not the greatest feeling in the world, that is for sure. This, of course, is not at all their fault. I find myself stalking twitter and facebook just to be connected to some sort of social network. Definitely not the most productive way to spend my time. I am really hoping to grow in my confidence and talk to other moms when I am at the playground with Madi. I always feel so much younger (probably because I am) and I can get intimidated fairly easy and so I often focus my attention on Madi and don't bother to introduce myself to anyone. I need to work on that.

I had actually gotten very okay with having so much alone time. My house is pretty clean and I get to play with my daughter a ton (which I know is a special luxury). I think because Ben was home spending time with us over the Thanksgiving Holiday, I was reminded of how nice it was so spend time with such a good friend and it left me craving time with other friends. Hopefully I am just being moody and tomorrow I won't mind again. sorry for the gripe session. :-/