Sharing is hard at all ages

Prepare yourself.... this is ridiculous.

I have less than 9 weeks to go until my Madi bear is due to join our family and I am experiencing serious sadness over the whole thing. I LOVE being pregnant and am so sad for that to be coming to an end. I feel very blessed and realize I am one of the lucky few that is still comfortable at this point and never experienced even a hint of morning sickness. I am grateful for that and I really do think that has enhanced the experience that much more. As excited as I am to meet her, I don't quite feel ready to share her with the world. I want to give birth and keep her all to myself. Yes, I know... it's absurd and impossible. I am hoping these feelings pass. Somehow I love this little person more than I have ever loved anything and I have never even met her. It's so surreal and exciting all at the same time. In my tummy, I can feel her move and kick and I know she is content and happy. She receives all the nourishment she needs and never cries. Once she is in the real world, it is one day closer to the trials and tribulations of the world and that breaks my heart. It's one day closer to the first time she gets sick, ends up in the emergency room, or gets a broken heart. I wish I could do the impossible, and protect her from all hurt in the world. I take comfort knowing that ultimately, God knows her life plan and will take care of her in ways that I can not. Still, I am not quite ready to let go. I am sure all of this is stemming from my out-of-control hormones and emotions. When she gets here, it will all have been worth it and these feelings will seem like a distant memory... I hope.